This post is coming a little late... 5 weeks ago (a couple days after xmas), I had to put Connor down... if you all remember, I'd jst found happiness again after not having had horses in my life for a couple of years and found Connor... he'd been off the track for about 6 months and was just the loveliest boy.
Unfortunately, he had major hoof problems, infection set in (obviously it had already started at the stage when I'd bought him - I just thought he was sore footed and adjusting to becoming a barefoot horse). Anyway, the infection became worse and had spread to bones and all... very sad to watch and totally heartbreaking ... for many more reasons than I'll cover here. So sadly, I stayed with him while the vet did his thing and for days I just sat at his grave and cried and cried... he had given me so much back in such a short period of time and it just wasn't fair.
I did alot of thinking/soul searching in that time and had a big dream of bringing horses an humans together to let them experience what I have over the years... how much horses have given to me over the years and how much they speak to your soul and help you in your darkest moments... how could I help others to experience that feeling, that beauty??? I had sooo many great ideas yet wondered how on earth I could ever start something like that...
I wanted to save broken racehorses and save humans' souls... envisioned my website even with the words 'Hurt By Humans' spread accross the home page... (meaning both horses AND humans who have been hurt by humans!)... not long after that, I stumbled accross the EAGALA association and it seemed all the ideas and questions I'd had in my mind were right there in front of me... so that's my next venture... it will take many years as I need a hell of alot of hours experience (apart from what we all do)... but somehow, I'll get there eventually.
Anyway, apart from all that, all my family & friends who knew how heartbroken I was said Connor would watch over me and send me another horse... well, he certainly did that!
I've had a new little mare for about 3-4 weeks now and she is a doll! She comes from a natural home... a beautiful young man who was bought up in Africa with lion cubs and baby impalas in his loungeroom, etc, etc... he has the most amazing way with animals and thanks to him, I have the loveliest little girl in the world now! Her name is Flicka (Flick for short)... so she is who will be taking me through the levels.
However!!! I have also just bought Dakota (my daughter Jaimee's mare) off her a few days ago. if some of you can remember, I've always totally clashed with Dakota so things will be interesting! She's a very smart horse and very dominant... no manners and I am finally kinda very happy I can take over and change that! I've never really wanted to step on Jaimee's toes while she was hers but now, it will be different I hope!
So it will be good to have two totally opposite horses to work with and help my skills... I think that I'd get it too easy with Flick as she is such a clever, giving little mare... yet Dakota will be the one that teaches me alot more I think as she will be hard work at the best of times... but who knows I guess.
Anyway, that's my update, so lots going on in my horse head that's always spinning! They just give us so much to appreciate in life!
A big thanks to Connor for helping me find my way again!